My Callings

"For there are many invited, but few chosen.” - Matthew 22:1-14

As this book is centered on the theme of adoption into our heavenly Fatherhood, a key point is that those who experience this adoption ahead of others become the firstborn—and, as such, they inherit the responsibility of leading and caring for others, just as the firstborn son in ancient families was expected to do. We see this pattern reflected in many Bible characters, but most significantly in the Only-Begotten, the Firstborn of all creation—the Word of God, known as Michael the Archangel in his prehuman and after resurrection existence, and Jesus Christ in his earthly life.

All creation is waiting eagerly for the revealing of the sons of God—the firstfruits, or the first adopted ones from among humankind. What a beautiful moment it was when Jesus, recognizing the significance of this role, dedicated himself at age 30, came to John the Baptist, and received his anointing for that purpose.

How powerful and clear were his early declarations:

To his first disciples: “You will see the angels of God ascending and descending to the Son of man.”
In the synagogue at Nazareth: “Jehovah’s spirit is upon me... he anointed me... Today this scripture is fulfilled.”
To the Samaritan woman: “I am he.”
And to Nicodemus: “We speak of what we know and bear witness of what we have seen… The wind blows where it wants… so it is with everyone born from the spirit.”
And how many precious conversations Jesus shared with his faithful apostles—allowing them to hear and see things that many prophets and righteous men longed to see but did not. For no one had ascended to heaven before Jesus; no one had been born again into that elevated position until him.

The realization of this heavenly glory was beautifully expressed in the faith and joy of Jesus’ first-century followers. Yet sadly, the long night of apostasy obscured not only the true identity of Christ but also the identity and role of his chosen associates—for many centuries. How beautifully, though, Jehovah began to reveal them again—both before and after the enthronement of Jesus as King in the heavenly Kingdom, which also marked the beginning of his invisible presence in 1914.

Now, over a century after Jesus’ heavenly victory over Satan, the heavens are becoming clearer and more visible to righteous ones—fulfilling the promise given to Abraham: “Your seed will be as the stars of the heavens and as the sand of the sea.” This is also echoed in the words to Daniel and reaffirmed by Jesus himself: “The righteous ones will shine as brightly as the stars in heaven.”

I am one of those who clearly sees the heavenly presence within the earthly realm and who has received the commission to express it as clearly as possible. To understand my journey toward this enlightened condition—what I call an adoption, a new birth, or an anointing for the kind of responsibilities the firstborn must carry—you need to understand a few key steps that I believe are essential in this process:

1. Hearing the Word of God with New Ears

Not just any ears—the ears of an adopted son of God. I know this may sound presumptuous, but Jesus made it clear: “Unless you turn around and become as young children…” you cannot receive this birth. Hearing as a son is essential. I’ve explored this more deeply in the Paul’s Calling chapter, and I will continue emphasizing it here.

2. Immersion in God’s Word

Daily study, reading, meditation—for many years. In my case, this has taken 30 years, about the same amount of time Jesus spent preparing before he became the Christ. Some may be called and anointed more quickly—this is not about comparison. This is my story, my calling.

3. Considering the Purpose of My Existence

This, I believe, is crucial. Just as Jesus pondered this before his baptism, so too have I. For me, the journey from water baptism to spirit baptism has taken 30 years. Jesus received both at the same time—not a huge surprise… smiles.

Finally, the idea of spiritual conception is also explored in Paul’s Calling, and I believe it will help readers better grasp my personal story of being called.

Now, let’s go to the story…

The Call to the Wedding Feast: Many Invited, Few Chosen

I remember that sometime around 1992–1993, while serving at a naval base, I first heard about Jehovah and His purpose to restore paradise and grant everlasting life to the human family on earth. The message came from a house guard while we were both recovering in the same hospital room for about a week—one of those large shared rooms typical of Russian hospitals at the time. But my ears were dull. God’s word didn’t penetrate my heart then. Looking back, I believe that was my first call—a call I rejected.

My second call was harder to ignore. This time, it came from my mother—far more persuasive, deeply convinced, and skillful in the way she wove together Bible truths with both logic and science. Though I declined that call as well, it left an indelible imprint. Looking back, I now recognize it as a solid seed of truth—one that took root more quickly in the soil of my heart than in the framework of my mind. Without a doubt, it was a call from above. But like many others, I only came to see it for what it truly was many years later. I described this experience in the chapter titled The Change.

My understanding of these events is shaped by Jesus’ parable in Matthew 22, where a king invites guests to a wedding feast for his son. The invited ones were unwilling, distracted by business or worldly interests, or even hostile to the messengers. So the king extended the invitation to others, both good and bad, until the wedding hall was filled. Yet even among the guests, one lacked the proper garment—symbolizing an unprepared heart. At the time of that second call, I was certainly among “the bad ones”—but I was still invited. And since the marriage ceremony is yet future, I’m grateful that I’ve had time to clothe myself with the proper garment—to respond to the call, not just as one invited, but as one striving to be among the chosen.

Once more Jesus spoke to them with illustrations, saying: “The Kingdom of the heavens may be likened to a king who made a marriage feast for his son. And he sent his slaves to call those invited to the marriage feast, but they were unwilling to come. Again he sent other slaves, saying, ‘Tell those invited: “Look! I have prepared my dinner, my bulls and fattened animals are slaughtered, and everything is ready. Come to the marriage feast.”’ But unconcerned they went off, one to his own field, another to his business; but the rest, seizing his slaves, treated them insolently and killed them.

“The king grew wrathful and sent his armies and killed those murderers and burned their city. Then he said to his slaves, ‘The marriage feast is ready, but those invited were not worthy. Therefore, go to the roads leading out of the city, and invite anyone you find to the marriage feast.’ Accordingly, those slaves went out to the roads and gathered all they found, both wicked and good; and the room for the wedding ceremonies was filled with those dining.

“When the king came in to inspect the guests, he caught sight of a man not wearing a marriage garment. So he said to him, ‘Fellow, how did you get in here without a marriage garment?’ He was speechless. Then the king said to his servants, ‘Bind him hand and foot and throw him into the darkness outside. There is where his weeping and the gnashing of his teeth will be.’ For there are many invited, but few chosen.” - Matthew 22:1-14

Why I’m Here: A Journey to Purpose

As I revisited and shared my life stories, I began to notice a consistent thread—one that points to a clear sense of purpose. Not just a general purpose in life, but a personal role within Jehovah’s broader purpose for humankind. The more I meditate on this, the more deeply I’m amazed at how Jehovah has been personally guiding me. I now see connections I hadn’t noticed before—how the situations I faced, the insights I gained through them, and the power of His Word to shape my thinking—all serve to reveal a purpose that is becoming clearer, more compelling, and deeply personal. Though still partly veiled, it stirs in me a strong sense that something significant is unfolding. Because of the trust I’ve developed in Jehovah, I’m ready to move forward—willing to participate fully in whatever He has planned.

This purpose isn’t self-invented; it was identified by Jehovah. My very first introduction to this concept came through my mother, from the very beginning of her witnessing to me. If you haven’t yet read her story—how she introduced me to the Bible’s message—it may help to review the pages titled Temporary Things and The Change on this site. If you’ve already read it, I’d like to share one specific point from the moment my second calling truly reached me.

I still remember the exact point—and even the tone of her voice—when my mother introduced this thought. She explained it with an illustration: just as a refrigerator or a car has a specific purpose assigned by its creator, so too do we as humans. Her question was simple: “Who truly knows the purpose of our existence?” She followed with a powerful reflection: “How meaningful could our lives really be if we’re not fulfilling the purpose we were designed for?”

This logic didn’t convert me immediately, but it stayed with me—and it never let go. In 1993, when my mother got baptized as one of Jehovah’s Witnesses, I encountered a powerful brochure titled What Is the Purpose of Life? How Can You Find It? The reasoning in it was so solid and thought-provoking that once I embraced the truth, I began using it extensively in my conversations. I personally distributed thousands of copies. I’m including a link to this brochure here because its message is directly tied to my calling. Anyone interested in understanding my calling will benefit from considering the idea of a divinely assigned purpose—one given by Jehovah Himself to each of us individually.

Later, while working on this book, I came across an article in the Watchtower that genuinely surprised me. Seeing it with my own eyes felt like a confirmation. Everything in that article tied the heavenly calling directly to our earthly purpose. It resonated so deeply that I dedicated an entire chapter to it—Callings in Watchtower Articles—and published it as its own page on this website.

That article helped me tie together the broader theme that runs through this book: the reality of the heavenly calling that shapes our journey of faith. As you will see across the different pages of this work (which I chose to publish here first), these callings are called heavenly not just because they come from above—but because they draw us upward, connecting us to a heavenly family and awakening the image of our true spiritual nature.

This connection doesn’t mean a severance from our earthly existence. Yes, our current bodies are weak, subject to decay, and unfit to inherit the heavenly Kingdom. But, like the apostle Paul, we groan with longing to be clothed with our new tent—the heavenly one. That spiritual garment is what will allow us to reach what the flesh cannot. And that journey doesn’t begin in the clouds—it begins now, as the seed of that calling quietly takes root within.

A Year of Purpose and Decision

Practically speaking, I was still in the navy, and it was time to make a decision—one that would change everything. I needed to stop serving Caesar. So I did what was necessary to be discharged from my duties and returned to my mother’s home.

As I mentioned earlier in this chapter, I was now searching for a way to naturally immerse myself into the kind of life that Jehovah wants from those who are to be part of His purpose. And yes—purpose—that word became central. I had already begun exploring how our very existence is tied to the Creator’s intention. Coincidentally, or rather, providentially, in 1993 the Governing Body of Jehovah’s Witnesses released and widely distributed the brochure What Is the Purpose of Life? How Can You Find It?

The impact of that publication shaped the following year, 1994. That year, Jehovah’s Witnesses chose this verse as the yeartext: “Trust in Jehovah with all your heart, And do not rely on your own understanding. In all your ways take notice of him, And he will make your paths straight.” — Proverbs 3:5, 6

This scripture dominated the spirit of preaching and teaching during that year. And that was the very year I began responding to Jehovah’s call—bringing my life into harmony with my Creator. For me, it became unmistakably clear that this was a year of calling.

I had nothing particularly bright on my horizon. Sure, I had experienced plenty of fun and joy in my life apart from Jehovah, but there were just as many moments filled with emptiness—some even bordering on depression. I had enough energy not to dwell on those feelings, but in all honesty, I knew something more meaningful had to emerge on the horizon. The future I had seen up until that point was shallow and short-lived.

By contrast, the picture my mother painted for me—based on Bible truths—outlined a future that was full of purpose and hope. It made sense for now, and even more for the future. That is why I became ready—genuinely ready—to hear every proof that supported the decision to align with Jehovah’s standards.

A Study That Sparked Transformation

And this is the place where another significant turning point occurred: I agreed to study the Bible with my mother.

Together, we went through the first few chapters of the study publication You Can Live Forever in Paradise on Earth, which explores a wide range of biblical themes. It was more than just reading—it was a process of uncovering deep truths. Each question invited sincere reflection and honest answers based on the Scriptures. This wasn’t the kind of study where one could simply offer surface responses or hide behind generalizations. It called for authenticity—truth that had to be believed in order to be spoken.

To my amazement, I found myself answering each question with full confidence, as if the truth was flowing out from within me. I couldn’t believe it. I was so overcome with joy that I started laughing—sometimes loudly, sometimes uncontrollably. My mother, seeing this, misunderstood my reaction. She thought maybe I wasn’t taking it seriously. But I was. I was experiencing something I could not yet explain.

Now, with the benefit of time and reflection, I can clearly see what happened: this was a powerful intervention by Jehovah. His holy spirit was touching me in a way that transformed my thinking—and my feelings—instantly. It was too vivid, too fast, too real to be dismissed as an emotional moment. I’ve worked with hundreds of people since then, and I rarely see such a rapid transformation. That’s why I believe what happened to me was not from human effort. It was Jehovah’s spirit acting on my heart.

At the time, I didn’t fully understand the nature of that moment. But now, as I write this book and reflect on those early days, I am connecting the dots. That one spark of holy spirit was enough to change everything. It marked the beginning of a lifelong transformation—one that still amazes me to this day.

Jehovah’s Spirit: Biblical Echoes of My Experience

To help the reader appreciate that my experience was not isolated or mystical, but rather consistent with how Jehovah has moved His spirit upon individuals throughout history, I want to share two examples from the Scriptures that resonate with what I went through.

King Saul and the Company of Prophets. Before the kingship of Israel matured into the era of David and Solomon, Jehovah appointed Saul as the first king. Though Saul later fell out of favor, his initial anointing came with a clear and powerful sign: the spirit of Jehovah came upon him.

“When Saul turned around to leave Samuel, God changed his heart, and all these signs were fulfilled on that day. So they went from there to Gibeah, and there was a group of prophets to meet him; the spirit of God came upon him, and he began to prophesy along with them.” —1 Samuel 10:9–10

At that moment, Saul was not trained in prophecy, nor had he prepared himself mentally. But Jehovah’s spirit changed his heart and gave him the ability to speak spiritual truths. This mirrors what I experienced: I had no preparation, but the answers came from deep within, as if something inside me had been awakened.

The Syrians Struck With Blindness. Another example is from the time of Elisha. When a Syrian army surrounded the city of Dothan to capture him, Jehovah’s intervention was not just protective—it was transformative. He blinded the soldiers—not physically, but perceptually—and redirected them without violence.

“When they came down to him, Elisha prayed to Jehovah: ‘Please strike this nation with blindness.’ So he struck them with blindness, just as Elisha had requested. Elisha now said to them: ‘This is not the way, and this is not the city. Follow me, and let me lead you to the man you are looking for.’ However, he led them to Samaria. When they came into Samaria, Elisha said: ‘O Jehovah, open the eyes of these men so that they may see.’ So Jehovah opened their eyes, and they saw that they were in the middle of Samaria.” —2 Kings 6:18–20

This is a vivid example of how Jehovah can shift perception in a moment. One moment they couldn’t see reality. The next, it became clear. That is how it felt for me—like waking up to spiritual clarity after years of blindness I didn’t even realize I had.

Evidence of Holy Spirit in the Christian Era

Just as Jehovah's spirit came powerfully upon individuals in the Hebrew Scriptures, the Christian era opened with extraordinary demonstrations of that same spirit. These moments weren’t subtle or private—they were visible, audible, and undeniable to all who witnessed them.

Pentecost 33 CE — A Fire from Heaven. The first and most dramatic instance was the outpouring of holy spirit at Pentecost in 33 CE. It was the fulfillment of Jesus’ promise to send a helper, a comforter, a teacher—Jehovah’s active force. What happened that day in Jerusalem was not symbolic or internal only. It was so evident that even skeptics were silenced by the facts.

“Tongues as if of fire became visible and were distributed over each one of them, and they all became filled with holy spirit and started to speak in different languages, just as the spirit enabled them to speak.” —Acts 2:3–4. People from many nations had gathered in Jerusalem for the festival. When they heard Galileans speaking fluently in their own native languages—languages those men had never studied—it was more than surprising. It was stunning. Peter explained that this was the promised outpouring of spirit foretold by the prophet Joel. That day, about 3,000 people were baptized. Clearly, the spirit of God wasn’t just present—it was active, speaking, directing.

Cornelius’ Household — The Spirit Breaks Barriers. Another striking example took place in the home of Cornelius, a Roman centurion. Until this point, non-Jews were not viewed as part of the congregation. But Jehovah had other plans.

While Peter was still speaking, the spirit interrupted—confirming that Jehovah had already accepted these ones.

“While Peter was still speaking about these matters, the holy spirit came upon all those hearing the word. And the faithful believers who had come with Peter were astonished, because the gift of the holy spirit was also poured out on people of the nations. For they heard them speaking in foreign languages and glorifying God.” —Acts 10:44–46

Just like at Pentecost, there were audible, visible signs—foreign languages, spiritual speech. It was undeniable. The holy spirit came first—before baptism—signifying divine approval. Peter rightly concluded, “Can anyone deny them water for baptism?”

These early believers didn’t receive the spirit through ritual, nor did they earn it by works. The spirit moved ahead of human reasoning, always according to Jehovah’s purpose.

The Disciples in Samaria — Holy Spirit by Laying On of Hands. “When the apostles in Jerusalem heard that Samaria had accepted the word of God, they sent Peter and John to them; and these went down and prayed for them to get holy spirit. For it had not yet come upon any of them… Then they laid their hands on them, and they began to receive holy spirit.” —Acts 8:14–17

Though these Samaritans had accepted the word and were baptized, the spirit had not yet come upon them. But when Peter and John laid their hands on them, it became evident to all that the spirit was now active. In fact, it was so noticeable that Simon the sorcerer tried to buy the ability to pass it on—because he saw something real happening.

The Disciples of John the Baptist in Ephesus. “When Paul laid his hands on them, the holy spirit came upon them, and they began speaking in foreign languages and prophesying. There were about 12 men in all.” —Acts 19:6–7

These men had been baptized into John’s baptism but hadn’t even heard of the holy spirit. Once they were correctly baptized in the name of Jesus, Paul laid his hands on them, and again the spirit revealed itself powerfully—through tongues and prophecy.

My Own Realization. Looking back, I see that what I experienced during my first Bible studies was not unlike what these early believers went through—on a smaller scale, perhaps, but no less real. The joy, the clarity, the newness of thought, the shift in desires—it wasn’t from me. It was from Jehovah. I didn’t need a tongue of fire to know that His spirit had reached me. The transformation was its own proof.

One Spirit, One Calling—But Few Are Chosen

I know it may be easy for some to be skeptical—especially among Jehovah’s Witnesses—when hearing about experiences like mine and connecting them with the anointing of the holy spirit that identifies the bride class. We have been taught, and rightfully so, to respect the idea that the number of those called to heavenly life is limited—but not necessarily by a predetermined number but by criteria.

But if we pause and look more closely at Jesus’ own illustration of the wedding feast, there is something striking to notice. After the original guests rejected the invitation, the king extended it to everyone—anyone the servants could find. The call went out to all, indiscriminately. Those who accepted the invitation were allowed into the wedding feast—not because of their background or status, but because they responded. The one man who was rejected? He was not clothed appropriately. He lacked respect for the occasion.

That detail is key. It wasn’t the invitation that failed him. He was called like the rest. But he was not chosen, because he didn’t show the proper honor to the event or to the one extending the invitation.

So what does that mean for us?

I believe Jehovah is still pouring out his holy spirit today just as he did in those days. That spirit generates joy, clarity, purpose—the very things I experienced at the beginning of my study. I now see with complete clarity: there was no separate “spirit” given to me—no special anointing that differs in kind. We all receive the same holy spirit. The difference is not in the spirit itself, but in whether one is called, and later, chosen—and what response we offer.

In fact, the January 2016 Watchtower, page 21, makes this point explicitly clear under the subheading “Have You Been Called?” It says: “Do you feel that you have more than average zeal in the ministry? Are you a keen student of God’s Word who loves to delve into ‘the deep things of God’? … Do you have a deep inner feeling of responsibility to help others spiritually? … If you answer these questions with a resounding yes, does this mean that you now have the heavenly calling? No, it does not. Why not? Because these are not unique feelings experienced only by those who have the heavenly calling. Jehovah’s spirit works with equal force in those who have the hope of living forever on earth.”

That statement helped me clarify what I already knew deep down. The intensity of the experience, the joy, the insights, the sudden spiritual awareness—they were real. But they were not proof in themselves of a heavenly calling. Still, they were also not proof that I wasn’t called. What mattered most was my response—how I would clothe myself spiritually in honor of the invitation.

Some may hesitate to even consider the possibility that their calling is heavenly. And in many cases, that hesitation comes from a sincere kind of humility. But I also recognize now—it’s often fear as well. Fear of being presumptuous. Fear of being wrong. Fear of standing apart. But as the apostle John wrote: "There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear, because fear restrains us." (1 John 4:18)

When our love for Jehovah matures—when our desire to respond to his will overtakes our concern about how we might be perceived—fear begins to lose its grip. We begin to love what he loves, to long for what he offers. Not because we think we are worthy, but because we know that he is the One inviting. And what he invites us to is not a burden—it’s a feast.

Jehovah’s Purpose: A Feast for All Peoples

Jehovah has always intended to bring joy, abundance, and spiritual clarity to all who are willing to listen. Through the prophet Isaiah, He revealed a beautiful vision: a prepared banquet—not for a privileged few, but for all nations. This divine feast represents more than sustenance; it symbolizes Jehovah’s desire to remove sorrow, ignorance, and even death itself. It points to a time when all people—regardless of background—can come together and enjoy the rich blessings He lovingly provides. The focus is not on how many are invited, but on Jehovah’s heartfelt desire to bless all who accept His invitation with reverence.

“Jehovah of armies will prepare for all the peoples on this mountain a banquet of rich dishes, a banquet of well-aged wines, of choice dishes filled with marrow, of filtered wines. And on this mountain he will destroy the shroud that is enveloping all the peoples, the covering that is woven over all the nations. He will swallow up death forever, and the Sovereign Lord Jehovah will wipe away the tears from all faces.”— Isaiah 25:6–8.

My Solomon Journey

The Joy of Becoming a Believer

Ransom

The Prayer of Dedication

Full-Time Preaching Commitment

Appointments

Special School: A Touch on the Purpose, A Glimpse of the Lamb’s Marriage

The Marriage of the Lamb Is the Climactic Moment of Revelation—Not Armageddon

Many view the battle of Armageddon as the high point of the book of Revelation. But this battle is not the final crescendo—it is a decisive step in clearing the way for something far more important: the union between Christ and his Bride. Revelation builds toward this sacred event: “Let us rejoice and be overjoyed... because the marriage of the Lamb has come and his bride has prepared herself.” (Revelation 19:7)

The war that precedes this marriage is not the goal—it is the purification of the stage. The true climax is not destruction but union. Not wrath, but joy. The Lamb’s marriage is the apogee—the highest point—of Revelation’s prophetic vision.

New Assignment

My Marriage, Family Life

Perception of Spiritual Israel

The Gift of a Son

Hard Work: Providing for the Family and Then for Others

Not Recognized by Close Associates

Betrayals That Shaped My Perception of Christ’s Suffering

My First Communion with the Anointed Ones

September 23–30, 2024 – My Visit to the Sanctuary: 7 Volumes of Millennial Dawn

April 2025 – Another Visit to the Sanctuary: The Book Tabernacle Shadows

Partaking at the Memorial: Before and After

Walking Into Jehovah’s Rest Through the Labor of Faith

June 2025 – Pure Worship Assembly: Understanding the Miracle at Cana’s Wedding

August 25–26, 2025: The Day the Call Said, ‘Wait’

Wrestling with Revelation

With all my respect to the faithful and discreet slave, I often find myself asking: Do they know what I know? And if not, why has Jehovah not revealed these things to them—but to me? And if they do know what I know, then why haven’t they shared it with the brotherhood? In my opinion, what has been revealed to me rises to the level of doctrinal matters. My own spiritual transformation is deeply connected to the thoughts Jehovah has allowed me to grasp. And I often think: If I experienced such change, what kind of transformation could my brothers experience if they received these same insights?

The entire message of this book ties into the theme: “For the creation is waiting with eager expectation for the revealing of the sons of God.” (Romans 8:19) Yes—all creation, not just my brothers in the faith—waits for this revealing. And I know its importance firsthand. These revelations are huge. They are powerful, faith-inspiring, and driven by holy spirit. I am a living example of the transformation that came along with them.

By giving me a new birth through His living word, Jehovah awakened in me an understanding that had been hidden before. It was not something I produced by my own reasoning—it was generated by Him. This insight raised questions that made me reflect deeply, especially about how certain matters are currently explained in our publications. At times, I hesitated to express these insights. I asked myself: Am I afraid of being removed from the congregation? But no—that wasn’t the issue. It was something entirely different.

What I felt was deep respect—respect for Jehovah, and for His chosen slave who is tasked with providing spiritual food to the household of faith, the people who bear Jehovah’s name. I do not see myself as a challenger to their role, but as someone who wants to uphold that arrangement. This reverence made me cautious, not fearful. It reminded me that timing and channel matter—and that spiritual insights, even if genuine, must be expressed with humility and love for the order Jehovah has established.

I prayed for quite some time about what to do with these revelations. As you see, this book is the expression of such research. All creation eagerly awaits the revelation of the sons of God. Sons of God—that includes me, too, since I was adopted and am now being led by the Holy Spirit to explain spiritual matters with spiritual words. I previously decided to continue my exploration, following wherever Jehovah leads me, and leave the task of providing spiritual food to the faithful slave.

So, I settled with the fact that it is not my job to feed others beyond those Jehovah has assigned me to feed. And here is the dilemma—I have the responsibility to feed my family, then the congregation where I serve as an elder, and finally, the people I meet in the field during my preaching activity. But it is hard to be divided: What should I do with all the spiritual insights? Over the past few weeks, I prayed about it extensively. I’ve had conversations with my wife and my mother, both of whom are faithful servants of Jehovah longer than me. They expressed concerns regarding my comments, which sounded somewhat different from the usual teachings. I knew, deep inside, that I could not deny what had been granted to me, knowing that the source was Jehovah’s spirit. I have no doubt about it. We decided to keep the status quo, my wife and I. When I asked her what I should do—whether I should go back into a mindset I had before—she firmly responded: “No, I don’t want you to go back." I told her I couldn’t even if I wanted to. My mother shared similar feelings.

Wrestling in Prayer — and the Answer That Followed

Lately, I’ve been living through a quiet but intense drama—an inner wrestling that reached a high point just before the weekend of August 25th. I had been praying earnestly to Jehovah, asking Him what I should do. These were not casual prayers. I remember clearly that weekend—I knelt down and poured my heart out to Jehovah. I asked for clarity, direction, and courage.

That night, during our family worship, the answer began to take shape.

One of them was Proverbs 28:1: “The wicked flee when no one is pursuing, but the righteous are as confident as a lion.” The Watchtower (May 15, 1993), in the article “Do You Follow Jehovah Fully?”, offers this comment: “THE righteous are like a young lion that is confident.” (Proverbs 28:1) They exercise faith, confidently rely on God’s Word, and boldly go forward in Jehovah’s service in the face of any danger.” Confidently relying on Jehovah’s word and boldly moving forward—these words were deeply meaningful to me.

The next verse we read said: "Evil men cannot understand justice, But those who seek Jehovah can understand everything." (Proverbs 28:5). The comment pointed out that even if someone claims to worship God, if they put men’s precepts above God’s, they do not please Him (it-2, 1139-3). This spoke directly to my inner struggle. My hesitation was not about wrongdoing but about recognizing that some understandings I have received now differ from the interpretations of many of my dear brothers.

Then came the next scripture: "Better is a poor man who walks in his integrity Than a rich man whose ways are corrupt."(Proverbs 28:6). And the comment: "Such an integrity-keeping course is possible, not by the individual’s personal moral strength, but only through deep faith and trust in Jehovah and His saving power. (Ps 25:21) God’s promise is that he will be a ‘shield’ and ‘stronghold,’ guarding the way of those walking in integrity. (Pr 2:6-8; 10:29; Ps 41:12) Their constant concern for gaining Jehovah’s approval brings stability to their lives, enabling them to follow a straight course to their goal. (Ps 26:1-3; Pr 11:5; 28:18)"- it-1 1211 ¶4. These words built my confidence. I realized that what was happening was not due to my personal reasoning or moral strength. If I truly believe that these insights were born from God’s Word, I must trust Him.

Wrestling at Daybreak: My Morning of Trust and Clarity.

On August 26, 2025, I woke up at around 4:30–5:00 am, with my mind suddenly focused on spiritual matters. It was as if Jehovah opened my mind to connect spiritual words and matters.

Reasons to Hold Back

That morning, I was led to reflect on three powerful scriptures:

Paul’s Vision – Paul wrote that he was “caught away into paradise and heard words that cannot be spoken and that are not lawful for a man to say.” (2 Corinthians 12:4)
If he had such reasons to remain silent, then perhaps I—and even the faithful slave—may have reason to hold back for a time as well.
Wisdom in a Sacred Secret – Paul also said: “We speak God’s wisdom in a sacred secret, the hidden wisdom, which God foreordained before the systems of things for our glory. It is this wisdom that none of the rulers of this system of things came to know, for if they had known it, they would not have executed the glorious Lord.” (1 Corinthians 2:7–8)
This gave me chills. Executing the Lord was the direct result of revealing a truth too soon. And if Satan organized such an attack on Job, on Jesus, and on others—why wouldn’t he do the same to those who now wrestle for blessings, like Jacob wrestled with the angel?
There’s even one more scripture—from the Song of Songs—that I refrain from quoting here. I believe it is tied to sacred secrets, and I’ve learned through experience that such things are only revealed by Jehovah, to whom He chooses.

Still Wrestling. So yes, I am still wrestling—perhaps with myself, or perhaps with an angel. What should I do with the rest of what has been revealed to me? These are things the entire creation is eagerly waiting to see.

Difference Between Personal Revelation and the Role of the Faithful Slave

First, it’s important to clarify the distinction between how Jehovah communicates through dreams and visions with individuals, and how He communicates truth to His people as a whole through the channel of the “faithful and discreet slave” whom Jesus appointed over all his belongings (Matthew 24:45–47).

Let’s begin with the matter of dreams and visions. Jehovah has long used such means to enlighten the minds of His faithful servants. Whether through visions during sleep or a powerful surge of clarity while awake, these were genuine spiritual experiences—recorded in the lives of men such as Job, Elihu, David, Isaiah, and Daniel. Their minds were opened to deep thoughts, hidden matters, and prophetic truths. The source of that clarity was not imagination or intellect—it was Jehovah’s spirit at work.

I’ve referenced this in earlier chapters, and I’ll repeat it here: what faithful men described in Scripture is not unfamiliar to me. I, too, have experienced moments of spiritual insight that were just as real—just as unmistakably divine. Some of these came during deep study, others during quiet reflection or in the middle of the night, flowing as a continuation of meditation and prayer. To deny the value of these moments—especially when they are supported by Jehovah’s Word and spirit—is to block the deeper communion He offers. Often, these glimpses or sparkles of insight vanish quickly unless we carefully reflect on them upon waking and connect them to what we already know. That is why I want you, my reader, to hear this—so you won’t miss the opportunity. These insights are not shared to elevate myself but to reassure you that what I write is rooted in the same spiritual reality Jehovah has used throughout history to enlighten His servants.

However, this is very different from the responsibility given to the “faithful and discreet slave”. That appointment, as Jesus explained, is a public assignment. It is not private or mystical—it involves feeding, directing, and organizing Jehovah’s people globally. The slave provides consistent and unified spiritual instruction, safeguarding the congregation from disorder, division, or premature conclusions.

Whereas dreams may be a personal channel of guidance, the spiritual food dispensed by the slave class is for all of God’s household. It’s the difference between a private lamp and a lighthouse for many. Both provide light, but they serve distinct purposes and operate on different levels of authority.

Dreams and Visions vs. Face-to-Face Communion

"For God speaks once, and a second time,

But no one pays attention;
In a dream, a vision of the night,
When deep sleep falls upon people,
While they sleep in their beds.
Then he uncovers their ears
And impresses his instruction upon them"

—Job 33:14-17

This passage beautifully illustrates how Jehovah uses moments of stillness and sleep to communicate his divine will. It highlights how, even in our unconscious state, Jehovah can impress wisdom and instruction upon our hearts. Will we recognize the glimpse when it comes?

More likely, Miriam and Aaron received similar revelations from Jehovah, which led them to question Moses’ unique role. They said, “Is it only by Moses that Jehovah has spoken? Has he not also spoken through us?” And Jehovah was listening. (Numbers 12:2). However, Jehovah’s response emphasizes the distinct nature of His relationship with Moses. He replied, “Hear my words, please. If there was a prophet of Jehovah among you, I would make myself known to him in a vision, and I would speak to him in a dream. But it is not that way with my servant Moses! He is being entrusted with all my house. Face-to-face I speak to him, openly, not by riddles; and the appearance of Jehovah is what he sees. Why, then, did you not fear to speak against my servant, against Moses?” (Numbers 12:6-8)

This moment of clarity makes me reflect deeply on the respect due to those appointed by Jehovah to be His representatives. As it is written, “Long ago God spoke to our forefathers by means of the prophets on many occasions and in many ways. Now, at the end of these days, he has spoken to us by means of a Son, whom he appointed heir of all things, and through whom he made the systems of things.” (Hebrews 1:1-2)

Further, the Bible compares Moses and Jesus, showing that both had different roles in serving Jehovah. “Now Moses was faithful as an attendant in all the house of that One as a testimony of the things that were to be spoken afterward, but Christ was faithful as a son over God’s house. We are His house if, indeed, we hold on firmly to our freeness of speech and the hope of which we boast down to the end.” (Hebrews 3:5-6)

It is clear that both Moses and Jesus had a unique, direct approach to Jehovah, and the authority they exercised was distinct and divinely confirmed. Others—those who received revelations through dreams and visions—must recognize and respect the authority of those chosen by Jehovah, as well as the authority of the appointed servants through whom Jehovah continues to guide His people. Moses and Jesus stand as supreme models of faithful service. That same pattern continues today, and we must acknowledge Jehovah’s ongoing use of a faithful channel.

In many sayings, teachings, and parables, Jesus repeatedly emphasized the role of a faithful and discreet slave—a servant whom the Lord of the household would appoint over all His belongings. That appointed servant, I believe, is similar in function to Moses, though it is not a single individual today, but a collective body. This is not only my belief but a conviction shared by us as Jehovah’s Witnesses. We are confident that the Governing Body of our organization has been entrusted with this role of stewardship—serving as the “faithful and discreet slave” within the household of faith, a household we inherit from Jehovah, but not apart from this appointed channel.

Jesus was very clear when he illustrated the parable of the man of noble birth who had to travel to a distant land to receive a kingdom and then return. Before leaving, he entrusted his servants with talents so they could work to increase his belongings. Upon his return, he appointed the faithful ones over many cities. This same theme appears in the sign of Jesus’ invisible presence, where he raises a vital question: “Who really is the faithful and discreet slave whom his master appointed over his domestics, to give them their food at the proper time?” He then adds that the one who proves faithful will be appointed over all the master’s belongings.

This appointment is not arbitrary—it is based on the slave fulfilling his responsibility: providing spiritual food to the household of faith at the proper time. That is the expectation, and it is the reason for the recognition and reward.

Anyone who claims to be part of the household of faith in Christ must have clarity on this matter: Who is this slave? When was he appointed? And what is his role in Jehovah’s arrangement?

It’s difficult to understand how so many religious denominations overlook or misapply this clear teaching. Many personalize the parable, applying it individually to all Christians, without recognizing that Jesus described a specific group with a distinct assignment. Ignoring the identity and function of this faithful slave blocks spiritual progress and deeper perception. Without recognizing Jehovah’s channel for providing timely spiritual food, how can one continue growing in truth and unity with His people?

I am not sure how much meaning the rest of this article will hold for such people, but for those who do grasp this truth, it is vitally important to understand how Jehovah’s arrangement works among the people who bear His name.

You will also come to see that personal enlightenment and the light provided through the faithful and discreet slave may not always feel the same. Walking in the light of a united people—under Jehovah’s arrangement—is not identical to simply possessing personal insight. Both are valuable, but the one appointed to serve the household provides a collective light meant to unify and guide, while individual insight must always be tested and refined within that larger framework.

From Question to Revelation: The Role of the Slave and the Spirit

For those who are curious about how this slave arrives at spiritual understanding of matters previously unrevealed, I recommend watching the video talk by Jeffrey Winder: “How Does the Light Get Brighter?” It provides a thoughtful explanation of how Jehovah’s spirit continues to guide and illuminate His people through His appointed channel.

Especially noteworthy is the section beginning around minute 8:30 in the video, where Brother Jeffrey Winder highlights the intensity of the discussion that took place among the apostles and older men in Jerusalem. The tension in that meeting was very real. Yet at the height of it, Peter’s comment brought the entire group into silence. That moment of quiet was not simply the result of human logic—it was a spiritual turning point. Brother Winder emphasizes humility as the key factor that allowed Jehovah’s holy spirit to operate among them. It was then—through humility, mutual respect, and spiritual receptiveness—that the holy spirit brought unity to the group. They were able to reconcile different views and collectively reach a unanimous decision. This is a profound example of how Jehovah’s spirit works through His appointed channel—not merely through individual enlightenment, but through a united body that listens, reasons on the Scriptures, and responds to divine direction in harmony.

That same spirit-guided process continues today in how the Governing Body works together. It helps us see that the “faithful and discreet slave” doesn’t arrive at spiritual clarity by personal preference or majority vote, but by being receptive to Jehovah’s timing and guidance. I believe that Jehovah desires all of us to progress toward the level of clarity of mind that Moses reached—where Jehovah could communicate with him face-to-face. This progression, I am convinced, is part of Jehovah’s purpose for humankind: to develop in each of us the ability to hear His voice clearly and to respond with sincerity. As I continue on this path, I am personally focused on learning how to align my thoughts and actions with His will. At this stage, I perceive glimpses of that clarity through dreams and visions. I cannot say when—or even if—I will reach the level of understanding that Moses had. But I can certainly appreciate the beauty of the insights granted to individuals like Elihu, Miriam, and Aaron. Their experiences show that while there are varying degrees of spiritual perception, each level has its place in Jehovah’s arrangement and contributes to the overall picture. Reflecting on their stories helps me recognize how far I’ve come in my own journey and how much more I still need to grow.

The contrast between the levels of understanding I’ve experienced reminds me of the tremendous potential for spiritual growth that lies ahead—if I remain guided by Jehovah’s spirit. Yet I also recognize that spiritual clarity is not achieved in isolation. Just as the faithful slave doesn’t come to deeper understanding without collective unity, I too am tied to the growth of the entire body. My own development is inseparably linked to the health and maturity of the congregation as a whole. This truth is powerfully illustrated in the following scripture: “From him all the body is harmoniously joined together and made to cooperate through every joint that gives what is needed. When each respective member functions properly, this contributes to the growth of the body as it builds itself up in love.” —Ephesians 4:16. This verse reminds me that progress is not merely personal—it is mutual. When every part contributes, the entire body is built up in love. And in that collective growth, I believe we are moving closer to the time when Jehovah will again speak openly with His people, not through riddles, but face-to-face.

Now let’s stay grounded in reality. Jehovah reveals certain things to specific individuals—members of the body of Christ—as He chooses. These insights may come through meditation, deep personal reflection, or moments of dream-like clarity. But what is vital among Jehovah’s Witnesses is that we never interpret such moments in isolation. We strive to understand and confirm them in harmony with the teachings and direction provided to the whole body. When those personal moments of clarity come, they often become a permanent part of our spiritual perception. Over time, they reconcile with the other truths we have learned—integrating into our broader understanding. Whether these insights come quickly or gradually, we continue to test them against the collective light provided by Jehovah through His spirit-directed organization.

I do not know whether achieving a consistent, “face-to-face” level of communication with Jehovah—like Moses had—is individually possible in this present system. What I do know is that such moments of spiritual clarity do occur. Paul himself acknowledged an extraordinary personal experience: “I know a man in union with Christ who, 14 years ago—whether in the body or out of the body, I do not know; God knows—was caught away to the third heaven. Yes, I know such a man—whether in the body or apart from the body, I do not know; God knows—who was caught away into paradise and heard words that cannot be spoken and that are not lawful for a man to say.” —2 Corinthians 12:2–4. This experience was intense, but it was not a consistent state of being for Paul. He was caught away—momentarily. This supports what he later wrote: “For now we see in hazy outline by means of a metal mirror, but then it will be face-to-face. At present I know partially, but then I will know accurately, just as I am accurately known.” —1 Corinthians 13:12. So, we live in a time of partial understanding—of spiritual reflections and gradual unfoldings. We receive glimpses, not full visions. Yet those glimpses are real. They shape us. They prepare us for the time when Jehovah’s presence will no longer be seen “in hazy outline,” but clearly—face-to-face. Until then, we walk in faith, aligning our insights with the body, and submitting our spiritual impressions to the unity that Jehovah’s spirit fosters among His people.

As I continued watching the talk by Jeffrey Winder titled “How Does the Light Get Brighter?” I found myself especially attentive around minute 11, where he introduces the idea that a question often sparks deeper spiritual insight. He gave three examples of how such questions arise:

A member of the Governing Body may notice something during personal study or Bible reading that raises a question.
A question may arise during the preparation or translation of spiritual food, requiring deeper consideration.
Certain world events may provoke questions that call for scriptural understanding.

When Brother Winder mentioned the first point, I smiled. I, too, have a question—one that I believe deserves the attention of the Governing Body. Formulating it hasn’t been easy, and I initially placed it here (on this page), but I’ve since chosen to remove it from public view. Just as the faithful and discreet slave waits for unified understanding before releasing new spiritual food, I too will wait for the right time and place.

The second example struck a deeper chord with me. During my personal Bible study—especially while translating between English, Russian, Greek, and Hebrew—several questions have emerged. These are not speculative or driven by current events, but born from sincere research and spiritual hunger.

That brings me to the third point. I no longer find myself easily stirred by world events. I trust the interpretation given through Jehovah’s channel. Experience has taught me the value of waiting on Jehovah, and I’ve come to appreciate the depth of wisdom the Governing Body demonstrates—clearly backed by Jehovah’s spirit.

How the Governing Body Handles Questions

In this talk, Brother Jeffrey Winder went on to explain how the Governing Body proceeds once a question is placed on the agenda. The first step is to decide whether the matter warrants additional research. If the answer is yes, a research team is assigned to prepare recommendations for the Governing Body to review.

The research team then carefully examines the subject. They look at everything our publications have said on the matter since 1879. They consider the context of the scriptures, review any parallel accounts, and finally weigh the impact that the original Hebrew or Greek wording has on the understanding.

Once the research is compiled, it returns to the agenda of the Governing Body. At that point, each member individually studies the research prayerfully. Then, they meet together to discuss it in prayerful unity. These discussions are lively, but never rushed or forced. Sometimes the Governing Body’s final conclusion differs from the recommendations of the research team.

Even if the adjustment appears solid, if there is not full unanimity, the matter is set aside. That shows humility and reliance on Jehovah’s timing. A subject may remain on the table for quite some time—even for years. Then, when it comes up again, it may move forward quickly, perhaps with only a few key refinements that were not discerned previously.

I especially appreciated how Brother Winder distinguished between the human process and Jehovah’s role. The process ensures careful research and united prayer, but ultimately Jehovah touches the matter in His own time. It is a very solid arrangement—one that allows Jehovah to reveal truths to His slave gradually, at just the right moment.

The Questions From Readers article from the October 15, 2011 Watchtower says:

“Of course, there are some subjects and scriptures that our publications have not discussed…. The brothers who work at the branch offices or at the world headquarters cannot answer every question about subjects that have not been explained in the publications. But we can be sure that the Bible gives us enough information to guide our life. And the things we do not yet understand give us an opportunity to show that we have strong faith in God and in his Word.”

A Relationship That Deepened

My relationship with Jehovah has grown to the point where I rely deeply on His Word, His spirit, and His organization. And He answers. He guides me. I find contentment and nourishment in the spiritual food I receive—but I also long for others to experience this kind of spiritual relationship. I know the steps that led me here. I know the anointing is real. And I truly believe that the brothers on the Governing Body are guided by the same spirit. I deeply desire to have a spiritual conversation with them face-to-face. There is a communion among the anointed that cannot be imitated. It is distinct, and unmistakable.

Something significant has emerged from my personal research—something I believe is worthy of being placed on the "agenda" of the Governing Body. For this reason, I have chosen to move that material out of public view. I will store it on a password-protected page titled New Wine. For those who are sincerely engaged in deep spiritual research and who reach out to me personally, I may choose to provide access—if I find them faithful and discreet. Each request will be considered individually. I will take time to get to know the person, to interview them, and prayerfully assess whether they are prepared to receive such material. This is not secrecy. It is reverence. It is a matter of timing and readiness. It also reflects the pattern Jehovah has established through the faithful and discreet slave: spiritual food is served when the time is right, and when hearts are prepared to receive it.

Confirming Scriptures: How Jehovah Reveals by Spirit

The experience I described—the alignment of thoughts, the sudden clarity, the unmistakable impression of truth—follows the same divine pattern seen in the lives of Jehovah’s faithful servants throughout the Scriptures. Let me point to a few examples that illustrate this beautifully:

"Just as it is written: “Eye has not seen and ear has not heard, nor have there been conceived in the heart of man the things that God has prepared for those who love him. For it is to us God has revealed them through his spirit, for the spirit searches into all things, even the deep things of God. For who among men knows the things of a man except the man’s spirit within him? So, too, no one has come to know the things of God except the spirit of God. Now we received, not the spirit of the world, but the spirit that is from God, so that we might know the things that have been kindly given us by God. These things we also speak, not with words taught by human wisdom, but with those taught by the spirit, as we explain spiritual matters with spiritual words. But a physical man does not accept the things of the spirit of God, for they are foolishness to him; and he cannot get to know them, because they are examined spiritually. However, the spiritual man examines all things, but he himself is not examined by any man. For “who has come to know the mind of Jehovah, so that he may instruct him?” But we do have the mind of Christ” (1 Corinthians 2:9–16).

"The Sovereign Lord Jehovah has given me the tongue of those taught, So that I may know how to answer the tired one with the right word. He awakens me morning by morning; He awakens my ear to listen like the taught ones. The Sovereign Lord Jehovah has opened my ear, And I was not rebellious. I did not turn in the opposite direction. I offered my back to those striking me And my cheeks to those who plucked them bare. I did not hide my face from humiliating things and from spit. But the Sovereign Lord Jehovah will help me. That is why I will not feel humiliated. That is why I have set my face like a flint, And I know that I will not be put to shame. The One who declares me righteous is near. Who can accuse me? Let us stand up together. Who has a case against me? Let him approach me. Look! The Sovereign Lord Jehovah will help me. Who will pronounce me guilty? Look! They will all wear out like a garment. A moth will eat them up. Who among you fears Jehovah And listens to the voice of his servant? Who has walked in deep darkness, without any brightness? Let him trust in the name of Jehovah and support himself on his God." (Isaiah 50:4–11)

Jehovah’s Method of Teaching: Morning Clarity and Spirit-Taught Speech

These two scriptures—1 Corinthians 2:9–16 and Isaiah 50:4–11—beautifully complement each other, offering a consistent picture of how Jehovah reaches the hearts of those who are willing to listen. They show that Jehovah does not merely inform; He touches, awakens, and impresses His thoughts on individuals through His holy spirit. Let’s reflect on how they reveal that process.

Clarity Through the Spirit – 1 Corinthians 2:9–16

This passage shows the mechanism of spiritual understanding: Jehovah's spirit reveals things that human eyes, ears, and hearts could never conceive on their own. These things are not derived from worldly reasoning but are kindly given to those who love Him. The spirit from God enables us:

To know what has been gifted: “so that we might know the things that have been kindly given us by God.”
To speak with spiritual words: “not with words taught by human wisdom, but with those taught by the spirit.”
To perceive deeper truths: “they are examined spiritually.”
To share the mind of Christ: “But we do have the mind of Christ.”

This passage is not just theological—it is deeply practical. It affirms that spiritual clarity doesn’t arise from intellect alone but from the inner operation of the holy spirit. When this spirit touches a person, the result is not only comprehension but also expression—words that reflect divine insight, not personal brilliance.

Daily Instruction Through Awakening – Isaiah 50:4–11

Isaiah reveals another layer: the timing and posture of this communication. He testifies that Jehovah awakens him “morning by morning”—a repeated, deliberate act of divine teaching:

Arousing the ear: “He awakens my ear to listen like the taught ones.”
Opening the heart to instruction: “I was not rebellious. I did not turn in the opposite direction.”
Strengthening for obedience and boldness: “That is why I have set my face like a flint.”

This passage gives us a picture of how the process unfolds not just once, but daily. Jehovah awakens both mind and spirit in the early hours, planting thoughts that prepare a person to serve with clarity, humility, and courage.

Summary: Spirit-Taught and Morning-Trained

These two scriptures together paint a striking image of how Jehovah operates:

He awakens the ear, often “morning by morning,” in quiet moments when the heart is still.
He reveals His thoughts through His spirit—searching “even the deep things of God.”
He teaches us how to speak, not with human logic but with spiritual insight.
He enables clarity, courage, and purpose, even in the face of resistance or humiliation.

This is not just the experience of prophets like Isaiah or apostles like Paul—it can be ours, too. These moments of clarity, born in early meditation or even through dreams, are part of the same divine process. They are glimpses of a greater awareness, a growing ability to think and speak as ones “taught by Jehovah.”

Jehovah’s Love and the Levels of Communion

It’s important to emphasize that Jehovah loves everyone. He can open the ears and hearts of individuals—even those who are not yet in the right moral or spiritual condition to be considered His close friends. This reflects His patience and undeserved kindness. However, the level of mental communion He shares with those who are morally, spiritually, and physically clean reaches an entirely different depth. That level is reflected in the experiences of Moses, Isaiah, and especially Jesus. These individuals didn’t just hear God’s voice—they became His trusted spokesmen.

I know this from personal experience. When I made the effort to clean myself—not by my own strength, but by Jehovah helping me have the heart to do so—something profound happened. It was as if He “moved in” to reside with me. He began to reveal His thoughts in a way that I never could have arrived at on my own. Insights came that weren’t born from human reasoning but from divine closeness.

This personal transformation reinforced for me that Jehovah draws especially near to those who walk in integrity and purity. But it also reminded me that He initiates the process—calling, awakening, helping us respond. The closer we draw, the more He reveals.

Conclusion: When Jehovah Speaks Quietly

On the morning of August 26, I awoke with scriptures resonating deeply within me—verses that seemed to explain something I had wrestled with in prayer the night before. They didn’t come with thunder, nor did I hear any voice. Yet their clarity was undeniable. They answered the question I had carried quietly for some time: Why would Jehovah allow a spiritual insight to be given, yet not make it immediately known—even to His faithful slave?

The words of Elihu in Job 33 came alive for me: “For God speaks once and a second time, but no one pays attention—in a dream, a vision of the night… Then He uncovers their ears and impresses His instruction upon them.”

I realized: I am not asking Jehovah to justify Himself. And I am certainly not challenging the channel He uses to feed His people. But these insights—whatever their source—are challenging me. And so I asked, What do I do with them?

That’s when the picture of Jacob’s morning wrestling came to mind. I, too, have wrestled—not against Jehovah, but with myself. With the weight of spiritual truth. With the tension of timing. With the longing to share, and the fear of stumbling others. In that dawn-like clarity, I remembered that Jehovah’s ways are not always immediate or public. They are often intimate, reserved, and respectful of timing.

I’m at peace with that now. Jehovah has answered me—through His Word, through the inner stirrings of His spirit, and through a process that mirrors the very care taken by the faithful slave when considering new light. Just as they wait for unity, for clarity, and for Jehovah’s guidance, I must also wait.

This is not passivity. It is reverence.

And as I move some of these insights into a private space—shielded until the time is right—I do so with love for my brothers, deep loyalty to Jehovah, and full confidence in His organization.

Because I know He speaks.
And I know He listens.

A Calling to See the Purpose.

On July 2, 2025, I had to travel to Lexington for work. Just a week earlier, during our circuit overseer’s visit, we were reminded of Paul’s sobering words: “The way I am running is not aimlessly; the way I am aiming my blows is so as not to be striking the air.” —1 Corinthians 9:26. That morning, I woke up and prayed to Jehovah, asking Him to give meaning to this trip. It's only about an hour and a half each way—not far, but in today’s busy world, even that can feel like wasted time if it’s not filled with purpose. And purpose is something I want all my time to be filled with. All of us—especially those called to do God’s will—long to be responsive to that calling. One of the best definitions I’ve found is this: “You are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for special possession, so that you should declare abroad the excellencies of the One who called you out of darkness into His wonderful light.” —1 Peter 2:9. And “beautiful” is exactly what I experienced that day.

I met a man named Toby. He shared with me his story of accepting Jesus as his Savior, and I was struck by the sincerity of his faith. His transformation was clear evidence of the holy spirit’s involvement in his life. Beyond his words, I could see and hear in the way he thought and spoke that he was blessed with the mind of Christ. I shared with him a link to this book. And now, just three days later—on the morning of July 7—I found myself re-reading the first chapter of 1 Corinthians. One verse held my attention: “To you who have been sanctified in union with Christ Jesus, called to be holy ones, together with all those everywhere who are calling on the name of our Lord Jesus Christ, their Lord and ours.” —1 Corinthians 1:2

This is one of those moments when the anointing of the holy spirit becomes evident—it fixes your mind on everything related to your calling. In this case, it was the phrase: “calling on the name of our Lord Jesus Christ.” My thoughts went immediately back to Toby.

When we briefly shared our stories, we both felt a bond of Christian fellowship. But we also felt a gentle tension—not conflict, but doctrinal or conceptual tension, born from differing spiritual paths. Toby has been calling on Jesus’ name for 21 years. I’ve been calling on Jehovah’s name for 30. We have both received blessings through our respective paths.

That contrast brought to mind Jesus’ words in Matthew 12:33: “Either you make the tree fine and its fruit fine, or make the tree rotten and its fruit rotten, for by its fruit the tree is known.” Both of us are called to examine one another’s fruits, and if the fruits are good, then the tree must be fine.

Introduction to the Chapter: Calling

This was a call I had to understand. At first, I began documenting a chain of events and revelations that emerged during my personal research. But as my reasoning deepened, it became clear that I needed a dedicated page to explore the spiritual meaning of the biblical term Calling. By simply clicking on this word, you will discover how I personally faced that call—and the beautiful truths I uncovered about calling on Jehovah’s name, calling on Jesus’ name, and the deeper meaning of prayer and worship.

The clarity I received through this investigation helped me realize my own presence within the holy place of Jehovah’s spiritual temple. And now, I feel compelled to share it—so I won’t remain speechless, like Zechariah when the angel Gabriel corrected him.

For those already blessed with the heavenly calling—those anointed with holy spirit and familiar with the sacred service within the holy place—this content will likely feel very familiar. For others, it may offer a glimpse of the goal worth pressing toward.

Enjoy the reading! Calling

On the Mission of Writing This Book

Bread Offering in the Sanctuary: Partaking of That Bread by Becoming Part of It

Kindling the Lights in the Sanctuary Overnight: Seeing the Lampstands Illuminated

Offering Prayers in the Sanctuary: Hearing Jehovah’s Voice Above the Ark’s Cover

Hearing from Other Anointed

The Time of Resurrection in Heaven, Adoption Before Death of the Physical Body, and How Resurrected Sons Will Rule Over Humans — The Method of Communication (Connection).

Spiritual Food and Unity in the Body:

Though Providing Spiritual Food for the Household of Faith Is an Appointment, Each Anointed One—As a Member of One Body—Contributes to the Growth of the Whole. Russell’s Recommendations on Handling Different Viewpoints.

“They will be as the angels of the heavens.”

Researches