My Callings

Why I’m Here: A Journey to Purpose

 

As I revisited and shared my life stories, I began to notice a consistent thread—one that points to a clear sense of purpose. Not just a general purpose in life, but a personal role within Jehovah’s broader purpose for humankind. The more I meditate on this, the more deeply I’m amazed at how Jehovah has been personally guiding me. I now see connections I hadn’t noticed before—how the situations I faced, the insights I gained through them, and the power of His Word to shape my thinking—all serve to reveal a purpose that is becoming clearer, more compelling, and deeply personal. Though still partly veiled, it stirs in me a strong sense that something significant is unfolding. Because of the trust I’ve developed in Jehovah, I’m ready to move forward—willing to participate fully in whatever He has planned.

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This purpose isn’t self-invented; it was identified by Jehovah. My very first introduction to this concept came through my mother, from the very beginning of her witnessing to me. If you haven’t yet read her story—how she introduced me to the Bible’s message—it may help to review the pages titled Temporary Things and The Change on this site. If you’ve already read it, I’d like to share one specific point from the moment my second calling truly reached me.

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I still remember the exact point—and even the tone of her voice—when my mother introduced this thought. She explained it with an illustration: just as a refrigerator or a car has a specific purpose assigned by its creator, so too do we as humans. Her question was simple: “Who truly knows the purpose of our existence?” She followed with a powerful reflection: “How meaningful could our lives really be if we’re not fulfilling the purpose we were designed for?”

This logic didn’t convert me immediately, but it stayed with me—and it never let go. In 1993, when my mother got baptized as one of Jehovah’s Witnesses, I encountered a powerful brochure titled What Is the Purpose of Life? How Can You Find It? The reasoning in it was so solid and thought-provoking that once I embraced the truth, I began using it extensively in my conversations. I personally distributed thousands of copies. I’m including a link to this brochure here because its message is directly tied to my calling. Anyone interested in understanding my calling will benefit from considering the idea of a divinely assigned purpose—one given by Jehovah Himself to each of us individually.

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Later, while working on this book, I came across an article in the Watchtower that genuinely surprised me. Seeing it with my own eyes felt like a confirmation. Everything in that article tied the heavenly calling directly to our earthly purpose. It resonated so deeply that I dedicated an entire chapter to it—Callings in Watchtower Articles—and published it as its own page on this website.

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That article helped me tie together the broader theme that runs through this book: the reality of the heavenly calling that shapes our journey of faith. As you will see across the different pages of this work (which I chose to publish here first), these callings are called heavenly not just because they come from above—but because they draw us upward, connecting us to a heavenly family and awakening the image of our true spiritual nature.

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This connection doesn’t mean a severance from our earthly existence. Yes, our current bodies are weak, subject to decay, and unfit to inherit the heavenly Kingdom. But, like the apostle Paul, we groan with longing to be clothed with our new tent—the heavenly one. That spiritual garment is what will allow us to reach what the flesh cannot. And that journey doesn’t begin in the clouds—it begins now, as the seed of that calling quietly takes root within.

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A Year of Purpose and Decision

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Practically speaking, I was still in the navy, and it was time to make a decision—one that would change everything. I needed to stop serving Caesar. So I did what was necessary to be discharged from my duties and returned to my mother’s home.

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As I mentioned earlier in this chapter, I was now searching for a way to naturally immerse myself into the kind of life that Jehovah wants from those who are to be part of His purpose. And yes—purpose—that word became central. I had already begun exploring how our very existence is tied to the Creator’s intention. Coincidentally, or rather, providentially, in 1993 the Governing Body of Jehovah’s Witnesses released and widely distributed the brochure What Is the Purpose of Life? How Can You Find It?

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The impact of that publication shaped the following year, 1994. That year, Jehovah’s Witnesses chose this verse as the yeartext: “Trust in Jehovah with all your heart, And do not rely on your own understanding. In all your ways take notice of him, And he will make your paths straight.” — Proverbs 3:5, 6

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This scripture dominated the spirit of preaching and teaching during that year. And that was the very year I began responding to Jehovah’s call—bringing my life into harmony with my Creator. For me, it became unmistakably clear that this was a year of calling.

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I had nothing particularly bright on my horizon. Sure, I had experienced plenty of fun and joy in my life apart from Jehovah, but there were just as many moments filled with emptiness—some even bordering on depression. I had enough energy not to dwell on those feelings, but in all honesty, I knew something more meaningful had to emerge on the horizon. The future I had seen up until that point was shallow and short-lived.

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By contrast, the picture my mother painted for me—based on Bible truths—outlined a future that was full of purpose and hope. It made sense for now, and even more for the future. That is why I became ready—genuinely ready—to hear every proof that supported the decision to align with Jehovah’s standards.

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A Study That Sparked Transformation

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And this is the place where another significant turning point occurred: I agreed to study the Bible with my mother.

Together, we went through the first few chapters of the study publication You Can Live Forever in Paradise on Earth, which explores a wide range of biblical themes. It was more than just reading—it was a process of uncovering deep truths. Each question invited sincere reflection and honest answers based on the Scriptures. This wasn’t the kind of study where one could simply offer surface responses or hide behind generalizations. It called for authenticity—truth that had to be believed in order to be spoken.

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To my amazement, I found myself answering each question with full confidence, as if the truth was flowing out from within me. I couldn’t believe it. I was so overcome with joy that I started laughing—sometimes loudly, sometimes uncontrollably. My mother, seeing this, misunderstood my reaction. She thought maybe I wasn’t taking it seriously. But I was. I was experiencing something I could not yet explain.

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Now, with the benefit of time and reflection, I can clearly see what happened: this was a powerful intervention by Jehovah. His holy spirit was touching me in a way that transformed my thinking—and my feelings—instantly. It was too vivid, too fast, too real to be dismissed as an emotional moment. I’ve worked with hundreds of people since then, and I rarely see such a rapid transformation. That’s why I believe what happened to me was not from human effort. It was Jehovah’s spirit acting on my heart.

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At the time, I didn’t fully understand the nature of that moment. But now, as I write this book and reflect on those early days, I am connecting the dots. That one spark of holy spirit was enough to change everything. It marked the beginning of a lifelong transformation—one that still amazes me to this day.

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Jehovah’s Spirit: Biblical Echoes of My Experience

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To help the reader appreciate that my experience was not isolated or mystical, but rather consistent with how Jehovah has moved His spirit upon individuals throughout history, I want to share two examples from the Scriptures that resonate with what I went through.

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King Saul and the Company of Prophets. Before the kingship of Israel matured into the era of David and Solomon, Jehovah appointed Saul as the first king. Though Saul later fell out of favor, his initial anointing came with a clear and powerful sign: the spirit of Jehovah came upon him.

 

“When Saul turned around to leave Samuel, God changed his heart, and all these signs were fulfilled on that day. So they went from there to Gibeah, and there was a group of prophets to meet him; the spirit of God came upon him, and he began to prophesy along with them.” —1 Samuel 10:9–10

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At that moment, Saul was not trained in prophecy, nor had he prepared himself mentally. But Jehovah’s spirit changed his heart and gave him the ability to speak spiritual truths. This mirrors what I experienced: I had no preparation, but the answers came from deep within, as if something inside me had been awakened.

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The Syrians Struck With Blindness. Another example is from the time of Elisha. When a Syrian army surrounded the city of Dothan to capture him, Jehovah’s intervention was not just protective—it was transformative. He blinded the soldiers—not physically, but perceptually—and redirected them without violence.

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“When they came down to him, Elisha prayed to Jehovah: ‘Please strike this nation with blindness.’ So he struck them with blindness, just as Elisha had requested. Elisha now said to them: ‘This is not the way, and this is not the city. Follow me, and let me lead you to the man you are looking for.’ However, he led them to Samaria. When they came into Samaria, Elisha said: ‘O Jehovah, open the eyes of these men so that they may see.’ So Jehovah opened their eyes, and they saw that they were in the middle of Samaria.” —2 Kings 6:18–20

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This is a vivid example of how Jehovah can shift perception in a moment. One moment they couldn’t see reality. The next, it became clear. That is how it felt for me—like waking up to spiritual clarity after years of blindness I didn’t even realize I had.

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Evidence of Holy Spirit in the Christian Era

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Just as Jehovah's spirit came powerfully upon individuals in the Hebrew Scriptures, the Christian era opened with extraordinary demonstrations of that same spirit. These moments weren’t subtle or private—they were visible, audible, and undeniable to all who witnessed them.

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Pentecost 33 CE — A Fire from Heaven. The first and most dramatic instance was the outpouring of holy spirit at Pentecost in 33 CE. It was the fulfillment of Jesus’ promise to send a helper, a comforter, a teacher—Jehovah’s active force. What happened that day in Jerusalem was not symbolic or internal only. It was so evident that even skeptics were silenced by the facts.

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“Tongues as if of fire became visible and were distributed over each one of them, and they all became filled with holy spirit and started to speak in different languages, just as the spirit enabled them to speak.” —Acts 2:3–4. People from many nations had gathered in Jerusalem for the festival. When they heard Galileans speaking fluently in their own native languages—languages those men had never studied—it was more than surprising. It was stunning. Peter explained that this was the promised outpouring of spirit foretold by the prophet Joel. That day, about 3,000 people were baptized. Clearly, the spirit of God wasn’t just present—it was active, speaking, directing.

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Cornelius’ Household — The Spirit Breaks Barriers. Another striking example took place in the home of Cornelius, a Roman centurion. Until this point, non-Jews were not viewed as part of the congregation. But Jehovah had other plans.

While Peter was still speaking, the spirit interrupted—confirming that Jehovah had already accepted these ones.

 

“While Peter was still speaking about these matters, the holy spirit came upon all those hearing the word. And the faithful believers who had come with Peter were astonished, because the gift of the holy spirit was also poured out on people of the nations. For they heard them speaking in foreign languages and glorifying God.” —Acts 10:44–46

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Just like at Pentecost, there were audible, visible signs—foreign languages, spiritual speech. It was undeniable. The holy spirit came first—before baptism—signifying divine approval. Peter rightly concluded, “Can anyone deny them water for baptism?”

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These early believers didn’t receive the spirit through ritual, nor did they earn it by works. The spirit moved ahead of human reasoning, always according to Jehovah’s purpose.

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The Disciples in Samaria — Holy Spirit by Laying On of Hands. “When the apostles in Jerusalem heard that Samaria had accepted the word of God, they sent Peter and John to them; and these went down and prayed for them to get holy spirit. For it had not yet come upon any of them… Then they laid their hands on them, and they began to receive holy spirit.” —Acts 8:14–17

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Though these Samaritans had accepted the word and were baptized, the spirit had not yet come upon them. But when Peter and John laid their hands on them, it became evident to all that the spirit was now active. In fact, it was so noticeable that Simon the sorcerer tried to buy the ability to pass it on—because he saw something real happening.

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The Disciples of John the Baptist in Ephesus. “When Paul laid his hands on them, the holy spirit came upon them, and they began speaking in foreign languages and prophesying. There were about 12 men in all.” —Acts 19:6–7

These men had been baptized into John’s baptism but hadn’t even heard of the holy spirit. Once they were correctly baptized in the name of Jesus, Paul laid his hands on them, and again the spirit revealed itself powerfully—through tongues and prophecy.

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My Own Realization. Looking back, I see that what I experienced during my first Bible studies was not unlike what these early believers went through—on a smaller scale, perhaps, but no less real. The joy, the clarity, the newness of thought, the shift in desires—it wasn’t from me. It was from Jehovah. I didn’t need a tongue of fire to know that His spirit had reached me. The transformation was its own proof.

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One Spirit, One Calling—But Few Are Chosen

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I understand that some may feel hesitant or even skeptical when hearing about personal experiences like mine—especially within a spiritual environment that rightly encourages humility and caution when speaking about sacred matters such as the anointing of the holy spirit. Among Jehovah’s Witnesses, we have deep respect for the teaching that those called to heavenly life number 144,000, a figure firmly grounded in the Scriptures and explained through the faithful and discreet slave. This understanding has helped shape our appreciation for Jehovah’s orderly purpose.

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With that in mind, I wish only to share how this calling has gradually become more real to me—not as something I presumptuously reached for, but as something that came into clearer focus through deep personal reflection, prayer, and study. I make no claim about numbers, symbolic or literal. I do not speak on behalf of others. I speak only to the responsibility I feel to respond faithfully to what I have experienced in harmony with Jehovah’s will.

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Jesus’ illustration of the wedding feast provides a beautiful framework. When the original guests declined, the king sent out the invitation more broadly. Those invited were not selected because of status or heritage, but because they responded. The one individual who was dismissed from the feast wasn’t cast out due to an invalid invitation—but because he failed to dress appropriately, showing a lack of respect for what had been offered.

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That illustration has helped me understand an important distinction: many may feel moved by the spirit and inspired by spiritual insight, but the question is—how do we respond? Do we approach our spiritual responsibilities with reverence and preparedness? For me, this has not been a matter of seeking status, but of honoring the invitation by living in a way that reflects spiritual seriousness and joy.

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I’ve found comfort and clarity in the Watchtower of January 2016, page 21, which explains that strong feelings of zeal or deep insight are not, in themselves, a confirmation of a heavenly calling. Jehovah’s spirit strengthens all of his people—those with earthly hopes and those with heavenly hopes. My experiences, while intense and transformative, do not in themselves confirm anything about my hope. But they have compelled me to take spiritual matters even more seriously.

I also recognize that for many, hesitation around the heavenly hope may stem from a kind of respectful fear—fear of being mistaken, fear of stepping outside one’s place. But I’ve come to see that the love of Jehovah and trust in his invitation must eventually overcome that fear. As the apostle John wrote: “There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear.” (1 John 4:18)

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Let the number 144,000 not become a reason to ignore or resist Jehovah’s calling. This number represents a real, limited group, but Jehovah’s spirit continues to move hearts, awaken faith, and invite sincere worshippers to draw close to Him. Each invitation—whether it leads to a heavenly hope or everlasting life on earth—comes from the same loving Source.

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I share these thoughts to reach others who may be quietly wrestling with similar feelings and questions. If anything I’ve written helps someone to reflect more deeply, to draw closer to Jehovah, and to honor His calling, I consider that a privilege and a blessing. And if Armageddon has not yet come, the invitation remains open—Jehovah is still calling, and as Jesus said, “The last will be first.”

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Jehovah’s Purpose: A Feast for All Peoples

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Jehovah has always intended to bring joy, abundance, and spiritual clarity to all who are willing to listen. Through the prophet Isaiah, He revealed a beautiful vision: a prepared banquet—not for a privileged few, but for all nations. This divine feast represents more than sustenance; it symbolizes Jehovah’s desire to remove sorrow, ignorance, and even death itself. It points to a time when all people—regardless of background—can come together and enjoy the rich blessings He lovingly provides. The focus is not on how many are invited, but on Jehovah’s heartfelt desire to bless all who accept His invitation with reverence.

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“Jehovah of armies will prepare for all the peoples on this mountain a banquet of rich dishes, a banquet of well-aged wines, of choice dishes filled with marrow, of filtered wines. And on this mountain he will destroy the shroud that is enveloping all the peoples, the covering that is woven over all the nations. He will swallow up death forever, and the Sovereign Lord Jehovah will wipe away the tears from all faces.”— Isaiah 25:6–8.